How can you mother yourself today? ♡
I felt an impulse to write, so here I am honoring that. Historically, I would ignore the impulse by coming up with 1,000 excuses; I don't feel like getting my laptop, it's past 9p and I should be getting in the shower, I should spend time with my husband, I should be doing something productive, the dreaded “shoulds”… but we are learning to rewire these habits, so when the impulse strikes I MUST act. That is spirit wanting something to come through me and I must honor the impulse.
I just started reading the book Maiden to Mother, by Sarah Durham Wilson. Literally just started reading it, I'm only on page 20. My doula recommended it to me, plus it kept popping up all over the place, so I felt called to pick it up. I've already cried like 3 times. It's 1000% reaching me on a soul level. The book is about how to mother yourself and step into your true feminine power. As a new mom, I'm finding it hard to navigate this new identity, I didn't realize how much transformation it would be becoming a mother. When I think of transformation, I think of something becoming greater than its previous state and although this is true, it's fucking hard. It's hard to lose part of your identity that has been with you your whole life. I didn't realize how much reparenting I would have to do. And I didn't realize how many old wounds have not healed. It's a blessing to be presented with the opportunity to heal them but damn it's a lot of hard work, a lot of feelings, a lot of tears, a lot of fears. But I'm determined. I'm determined to write a new story, to rebirth into a new version of myself, to rewire old patterns and beliefs, and to let go of what is no longer serving me.
So, through this journey of transformation, I'm having to revisit old parts of myself. The parts that I've neglected, the parts that have been stored away for so long. Bringing to light all of the aspects of myself that I have exiled or ignored because of shame, fear, confusion, loneliness… trauma. So, it's time. Time to bring them all together one by one into a room to shine light on them, to let my inner child know that I am here to mother them, to thank them for working so hard, and to listen to them all, and give them the opportunity to truly heal.
However, healing does not have an endpoint, it is a lifelong journey. I look at healing like a spiral, each time you revisit an old wound you are a new version of yourself, peeling away a new layer to uncover deeper teachings and understandings that are a byproduct of these complex human emotions (if we allow the space to welcome in these transformations). All of our wounded parts truly come down to needing one thing, love. Our inner child just needs to be tended to. So, if we can welcome in and love all of these parts of ourselves, well, then we live truly in the embodiment of ourselves.
So I invite you into your inner world and ask the question.
* How can I mother myself today? *
Some ideas on how to mother yourself:
Do something that brings you true joy
Be kind to yourself
Bring awareness to how you feel without trying to push it away
Take a bath or shower
Go for a slow walk
Eat nourishing foods
Dance
Give yourself a hug
Drink a large glass of water
♡ Honor yourself for how far you've come ♡
